After years of fighting with my creative insecurity, it finally near the end. I've realized that it's not worth it for me to write a story just for the sake of having a cool scene to exist. I barely thought of the entire story itself:
How does the story start?
How the main character meets their first external conflict?
How do they face their obstacles throughout the story?
Why do they do that?
What is their true goal?
What else the stakes?
And how the story ends?
My character in these illustrations still doesn't have her true goal and true antagonist yet, even though I got her backstory wip. Even Krankysfirebrand said she is a child soldier but I didn't say she is. So, she will never ready to show in comic, animation, or written stories until her character development is 100% complete. Right now, I only have ideas of a scene excerpt of her cool action. If I make the story from scratch first, that would be daunting and I will end up getting nothing but a terrible narrative with a vague and meaningless main character. But since I am still obsessed with the cool scenes in my head, I just create a single illustration or prose, enough to fulfill my obsession with those scenes in my head. Hell, I ever committed to making a graphic novel of an alien invasion just for the sake of having a scene of her unleashing her gigantic walker and use it to sweep all the alien forces. The rest of the story? Well... third-time revision throughout years with canceled characters and settings.
I am also sorry for my intention to do a character roleplay. I wanted to make a story and artwork out of them if they already turn great. From now on, I will focus on creating illustrations instead and being less active again on the forum, specifically character roleplay. I will use my recent factions, good, evil, and neutral, and I am currently waiting for the newest Blood Cult event or I have to start my Corrupted faction first.